Don't You See?

"W-Wade." John choked out, he thought he could handle with but....he couldn't and he just knew Wade would not let him go. "P-Please...." It would be his first time with a man, that didn't mean he was sraight, it just mean he was trying to save himself.

Wade shut his eyes and rolled off of John.
"I can't do this." He shook his head slowly, standing up to pull up his pants.
He shook his head more firmly, locking eyes with John.

John swallowed the lump that had built up in his throat. He quickly drug his hand across his eyes to hide the evidence that he had been crying.

Wade sighed.
"John, there's something I need to tell you."
It was time to tell him. He had just almost raped him, that pretty much meant he couldn't hold back anymore.

John took a deep breath. He owed him for not going through with it even though he could have.

"I.."
Wade didn't think he could bring himself to say the words that he needed to.
"I... love you.' He sighed, eyes closed tightly.

John's mouth opened and closed, each time the words dies on his lips. He wanted to yell, tell Wade that is no way to treat someone you love and he couldn't be with such a cruel person and Wade needed to stop jerking him about but the words died on his lips.
"Then why do all this shit to hurt me?"
That seemed to be all John could say.

"Would you have ever paid me any attention if I didn't?" Wade sighed. "I'm sorry John. I'll leave."

"You know what? You have ordered me around all week and its going to stop now." John stood and put his pants back on. "I would have liked you and payed attention to you if you would have just been nice, maybe have been my friend instead of my dictator that abuses me every fucking chance he gets. "John stood directly in front of Wade.
"I should hate you....but I don't. Im angry but I will forgive you if you will stop being such an insufferable ass and be my friend..." John paused before adding softly.
"then maybe we can be more."

Wade nodded slowly, feeling like a lectured child. This was good to him. John should hate him for what he'd done.... but he couldn't help but get lost in those blue eyes.

"Wade..." John sighed, he would regret this, he just knew it. "Do you want to spend the night? I can sleep on the floor."

Wade shook his head.
"It's your room. I can sleep on the floor or I can just go. I'm fine." Wade bit his lower lip and shook his head again.

"Wade, first thing, if your going to be my friend you will learn that I take care of my friends so you can have the bed." John pushed him towards the bed.

Wade was going to say that the bed was big enough for two but didn't want John to take that the wrong way.

John sat back down on the floor and took one of the two pillows from the bed. "I am stealing a pillow though."

Wade shook his head and grabbed his bag.
"I'll leave, sleep on your bed."

"Wade, if you ever want to be more than friends, he need to get to know eachother. Can't you do that?"

"I can... I just don't want you to sleep on the floor. I'll stay on the floor if you want me to stay."

"Wadeeeeeeee." John's felt he cheeks heat up, he had just let out a whine, he did not whine. "Stay, just do it my way tonight. You owe me, you almost raped me so you owe me, sleep on the bed." John's lips rose in a smile. "I demand you sleep on the bed."

Wade gave a small smirk and with a sigh he laid on the bed.
The words "only if you lay with me" just wouldn't come out of his mouth. He was too afraid.

"Wade....were you serious when you said you....'loved me?'" John questioned quietly.

Wade nodded, hiding his blushing face in the pillow. He was Wade Barrett. He did NOT blush.

'Then can we share the bed? This floor is hard and I warn you now, I sleep up there and you do NOT try and get to 1st or 2nd base." John grinned.

"Okay... I won't." Wade promised and he didn't plan on it.

John grinned and crawled up into the bed, sighing contently at how soft the mattress was.